Anyway, I need guidance for my spiritual life. I just can't seem to contact Grace. Messaged her, but no reply. Call her, but no answer. It's getting really frustrating, not being able to contact her. It's like I had people to guide me last time, then now it's like I'm left alone. No one that I can really turn to. Karen is not like Grace, if some of you get what I mean. But I actually don't think your know what I mean, but never mind it's for me to understand can already. Then Derek is like already super busy, cause he's an elder in church, with super huge commitments for his family, and he's going to become the chairman of the church soon. So who else can I turn to? I wanted something or someone to guide me and constantly teaching me about God's word, but there's nothing and no one. Wanted to join YFC to help me last time, but there's no one to sort of mentor me. So now I just try to learn by myself, though I don't think I'm learning that much as compared. Now I'm just trying to attend seminars and courses that teach God's word. Trying to learn as much as I can on my own. Though I still think I need someone to guide me along. Oh wells, now I just pray that Grace will contact me soon. She's like the only one I can turn to, but I think she's just really busy. Maybe I need a new mentor. Haiz.. I just need someone to guide me. Oh God, please send me someone to guide me, I really need someone to guide me and teach me. I don't think I can learn all by myself. Please help me, Oh Lord.