So many things have been happening, but i'm learning through the process... and i am glad that i'm going through this actually. if all these did not happen? i would not have learn so much about GOD. i really appreciate what God put me through, i know He is making me learn and disciplining me. He wants to change me for the better. He knows that i have been sinning so He wants to teach me. But you know sometimes thoughts just keep running through my mind, and i'm constantly reminding myself of what God will is for me and keep out all unhappy thoughts. i'm really learning and trying to depend on God himself. i know i have no control over my life, cause God already planned it all. so my responsibility is to trust in Him and entrust my life to Him.

i will be leading worship soon and i pray that God will prepare me for it, to lead his congregation in worship to Him. i need to keep my focus on God.

anyway, i realized i have been slacking and procrastinating in my work, especially my school work. submission is just 2 more weeks and I'm barely done with my corporate stationery. it's like i do not have the motivation to do. but i have been reading a lot on worship and other Christian stuff. just not concentrating on my school work. is it because i want to concentrate on God that i do not care about my work? it should not be.. i need to glorify God with my work too. whatever i do, it should be to my best for God. i think i just need to sort out my thoughts and priorities and plan my time. i want to do my best for God.

Now, i also feel that design is not my forte. i do not know why but it just seems like while i'm doing my own branding, i do not know what's my designation. i can't put illustrator cause i do not like to do illustration. i only like typography, but i cant put typographer. cause i do not think there is such thing. i dunno.. i'm just very confused..

my life is quite screwed huh.. oh wells.. i also have this feeling that my life is short, like really short, i will not pass more than 30. seriously, its just this something that's telling me my life is short. sometimes i just wish God will take me away with Him. i wish.....